Well, i was disappear from my own blog since long long time ago i guess.
I am facing a lot of uncertainties recently.
and i doesn't know whether am i capable enough to face and solve them by using my own strength.
I am uncertain about my future, another way round, i am having uncertainties for my and my bf's future.
After all discussions and conflicts no matter with our own or with others.
We decided to do something new!
We are going to start our own business, the very first business of us!
Before that, i was facing the humanity conflicts with somebody else, which i thought and treat them as my own family.
It's struggling in my mind for two days.
I am wrong, been talking too much..
I am wrong, for my careless unchecked words..
I am wrong, to share my mind while i thought they will understand but eventually they don't..
I am wrong for hurting them with my unintentionally words.
I should be blame, as the one said.
I have been trying so hard today for shaking this issue out of my narrow mind.
Next, assignment.
OH MY GOD, a lot of proposals are waiting for me to complete.
I guess, my boyf is assuming that i am typing so hard for our proposal.
In fact, I am not. Ahah
Releasing stress might get me better later. Perhaps? LOL
I got a book for this business, and i will try my best to finish it as soon as possible.
I should do something, something big. To get my achievement, and gain my wealth.
My "L.D.R" said i am different from previous.
"Why?" I asked.
"U are losing ur passion on the things u wanted to do, it's so not u, the person i know, she will set target for herself and trying badly for achieving the target. That makes her charming, but u are not, u are like a lose peacock, turn ur head down and almost reaches the land.", he said.
"Am i? U serious?", i asked
"Yes, please be confidence on urself like wat u did previously, be positive and do believe in law of attraction! u can do it, and u can do more than it!", he said.
Oh my, am i getting so much worse than previously? yes, i think so.
ok, pick up urself and keep going, please.
Ignore those whom will makes me fall, just be focus and respect for the person who will grow me into better stage.
I am gonna done a best proposal for my "baby" to be born. LOL
Next, family relationship.
My sister, she is proud of me, she always feel i am the future success example for her.
I scared that i would turn her down. (in-confidence again =.=)
hmm, stop stuggling, let's go slp and kick all the trouble out from my mind!
goodnight world.
